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Haven't used this is forever
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[09 Dec 2005|10:06pm] |
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ok im better now byebye
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[02 Dec 2005|05:01pm] |
nobody cares
nobodys coming
no one wants to be my friend
my happiness is gone
i will never be the same
only me and my lonesomeness
nothing will protect me
and no one can save me
i am not supposed to be this way
but i am
i am depressed
i am sad
i am lonely
because nobody cares
and nobody is coming to catch me
when i fall
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[28 Nov 2005|08:31am] |
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what has happened to me? i feel like im not nice anymore. i know i am but not reallly, like i feel like maybe eric doesnt think im nice ne more cuz i d k im gonna go now byebye
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[24 Nov 2005|06:25pm] |
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BYE BYE LIVEJOURNAL IM HEADING FOR MYSPACE AND XANGA!!! :):):)
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[19 Nov 2005|09:41pm] |
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[17 Nov 2005|03:16pm] |
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Hellloooooo g2g im doing a priject lol ok bye bye
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OK! nvm everythins is settled i love my friends and i dont want to have anything happen between us. carli did say those things and it was bad but its partially ok because i have moments too where im like "oh im just tired of so and so right now" or whatever. ill talk to her tomorrow and settle everything ansd give her space and work eberything out and stuff... carli, if yer reading this i dont want to be mad or anything... it bothers me that u said that stuff and that u told me you didnt when i asked u about it but maybe u just need some space from me or something and thats fine because i kinda know how u feel so ill talk to u later i really dont want their to be drama i just want all of us to be friends and stuff so i will settle everything out and stuff but not right now or whatever. ok bye.
mashed potatoes + chicken = love (lol!)
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[16 Nov 2005|08:35pm] |
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im talking to makenna and she said that person #2 said stuff but she didnt hear carli say that and if carli said stuff thats mean and she said a few days ago carli said she wanted some space from me and that it was a mistunderstanding and stuff but now im calling carli to see whats going on
but niw its even more confusing because makenna said (im using names now i dont think its taht bad ne more) that she didnt say alot/anything and carli and adrian were talking and carli said makenna said "kets hide so erica wont see us" and SHE was talking to adrian so yeah people are lying to me because first of all, adrian doesnt have any reason whatsoever to make up a lie like that... second of all, its wierd how makenna said that carli sed stuff but didnt hear it, and carli said makenna said stuff bad about me. so obviously someone is LYING to me and i feel like the victim and that im so gullable and stuff but i really want to know whats going on because it is so not fair to me what they are doing. so yeah adrian wouldnt lie about something like that- its too complicated o a story and she has no reason or motive to say that. ok bye bye
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im back from the concert. i think i did good on my solo
anyway i found out that my friends secretly dont like me and think im annoying and run away from me after school... that really made everything better (sarcasticly)
so someone told me that ***** and ******* were like "hurry up" and stuff after school so someone asked them, "why r u guys in a hurry? because of the feild trip?" and they were like, "no were getting away from erica" so she was like, "why?" and they said "cuz shes so annoying" so she said, *******, just a day ago u sed she was yer best friend..." and then ******* said that she wasnt allowed to hang out with me. So then ***** said, "if you hung out with her u would understand how anoyying she is" and she said that i was sooo annoying. And i heard that they tell me they cant hang out and then go hangout just the two of them. Of course, im so upset like... i thought they were my best friends and then i found out that they secretly like... hate me... and someone, thank u for sticking up for me and saying that that was wrong of them to do and stuff because that makes me feel so bad that they would just ast like everything is fine and that were friends and then say a whole bunch of stuff about me behind my back. That was just wonderful i feel so bad now i didnt even do anything wrong but apperently im just so unbearingly annoying that people run away from me.
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hey u guys check out my new lj name its NaturalBlonde92
So yeah i have my outfit for the concert picked out. It's cute. So im gonna go now lol i have homeowork to do and i dont want to go to bed at like.. 12:00 like last night so yeah ill update alter or tomorrow.. ancd check out my xanga its: NaturalBlonde92
lol they are the same wait no wow u didnt already knowhat
bye bye!
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[13 Nov 2005|07:58am] |
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You are...(looks)
[ ] tall
[ ] in between
[*] short
[ ] blonde
[ ] redheaded
[*] brunette
[ ] black-haired
[*] blue-eyed
[ ] brown-eyed
[ *] green-eyed
[] hazel eyed
[ ] gold eyed
[ ] grey eyed
[ ] with glasses
[ ] with contacts
[ ] with braces
[ ] with freckles
[*] with piercings
[ ] with tattoos
[] and have long hair
[ ] and have short hair
[*] and have mid-length hair
Your nationality includes...
[ ] chinese
[*] indian
[ ] taiwanese
[ ] japanese
[ ] hispanic
[ ] nicoya
[ ] puerto rican
[ ] chicana
[*] italian
[ ] scottish
[ ] filipino
[*] dutch
[*] french
[ ] german
[*] irish
[ ] greek
[ ] portuguese
[ ] polish
[ ] korean
[ ] jamacian
[ ] canadian
[ ] lithuanian
[ ] native american
[ ] russian
[ ] british
[ ] danish
[ ] african
[ ] romanian
[ ] armenian
[ ] finnish
[ ] swedish
[*] other (english)
Your favorite color(s) are?
[ ] red
[*] pink
[ ] yellow
[*] black
[ ] green
[*] blue
[*] white
[ ]silver
[*] purple
[ ] brown
[*] orange
Some things you've done/played include...
[ ] soccer
[ ] cheerleading
[*] dancing
[ ] tennis
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[ ] softball
[ ] wrestling
[*] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[ ] basketball
[ ] baseball
[ ] golf
[ ]playing in the mud
[*] playing music
[ ] hiking
[ ] kayaking
[*] camping
[*] horseback riding
[ ] marching band
You are sometimes...
[*] annoying
[*] talkative
[*] shy
[*] funny
[*] serious
[*] bubbly
[*] spazzy
[*] fun-loving
[*] laid back
[ ] strict
[*] hyper
[*] weird
The music you like is?
[*] rap
[*] rock
[*] pop
[*] country
[*] hip hop
[*] r&b
[ ] slow jams
[ ] Christian
[ ] classical
[*] techno
[ ] oldies
[*] the 80s
[*] punk
[ ] Metal
[ ] reggae
[ ] Goth
[ ] Latin
[ ] 90's Grunge
[*] musicals ( i c them sumtimes)
[ ] 70's
[ ] Disco
[ ] Classic rock
The pets you have are?
[ ] cat
[*] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[ ] rabbit
[*] fish
[ ] Bird
[*] other (hamster)
Clothes you like to wear are?
[*] plain t shirts
[*] sweatshirts
[ ] stockings
[ ] high heels
[ ] boots
[*] sneakers
[*] jeans
[*] pj pants
[ ] boxers
[*] panties
[ ] dresses
[*] mini skirts
[ ] long skirts
[*] watches (kinda sorta maybe)
[*] necklace
[*] hoop earrings
[ ] toe socks
[*] flip flops
[*] halter tops
[ ] stilettos
[ ] band shirts
[ ] shorts
[*] sleeveless shirts
How do you like to wear your hair?
[*] down
[*] ponytail
[*] pigtails
[*] messy bun
[*] half ponytail
[*] scrunched/curly
[*] bun
[*] crimped (whoa 80's lol)
[*] with a bandana
[*] French braids
[ ] lots of little braids
[ ] Gel
[ ] hat
[ ] messy hot guy hair
[ ] fauxhawk
You're mostly labeled as?
[ ] goth
[ ] emo
[ ] prep (hope not)
[ ] punk
[ ] hippie
[ ] nerd
[*] ditzy
[*] hyper
[*] happy
[*] everything
[*] I hate labels
[ ] I love labels
[*] I have no idea
You eat?
[ ] dessert every night
[ ] no meat
[ ] diet stuff
[*] healthy foods
[*] junk foods
[*] a lot of carbs
[ ] lots of meat
[*] salad
[*] seafood
[ ] mountain dew (everyone likes it but me)
A typical friday night...
[*] mall with your friends
[*] partying
[*] watching movies
[ ] going to the club
[*] staying home
[*] babysitting and getting $$
[*] hanging out w/ my friends
[*] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] working while your friends are out having fun
Currently you are...
[ ] in a relationship
[*] single
[*] crushing
[*] single and looking for someone
[ ] just broke up
Online, you use:
[*] lol
[ ] sup
[*] =D
[*] lmao
[*] stfu
[ ] ty
[*] j/k
[*] ttyl
[*] g2g
[ ] ^^
[ ] T_T
[ ] x_x
[*] ^_^
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so the most exciting thing ive done this weekend was went to elenbas. we went to the store and bought lip gloss and we went back and waxed our eyebrows and elena's hurt really bad and mine got all red! lol but it was funny and now they dont look like caterpillars (makenna lol) me and makenna call bushy eyebrows caterpillars! :P lol i luv my friends
leave something
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[11 Nov 2005|11:14pm] |
hey u guys i have a new xanga and another lj:
lj: naturalblonde92
xanga: naturalblonde92
so anyway i want a myspace reeeaaalllly bad someone leave a comment on how to get one :):):)
p.s. i have a manikin elctronic baby thing and its name is kim and its asain :):):) ok bye
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[08 Nov 2005|08:54pm] |
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my dog needs surgery :( that problem wit her leg was acutally a common thing that athletes and active animals get, the surgery is not bad at all but... w/e its like $1200 and stuff but im not gonna get into all of it. im a little sad but ill get over it sometime i guess. ok bye
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[07 Nov 2005|09:36pm] |
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more talk about my dog... i let her in finally and i ran her up and down the street but thats not enough because they expect me to walk her around the block when its late and dark- i dont want to because i don't want to be raped or kidnapped and my brother is doing that whole like... controlling "listen to me when im talking to you" thing like hes my parents or something. w/e i take care of her i feed her ALOT i let her in at night and walk her and play with her and he ses she should go to my uncle when i say she shouldnt. its so screwed up and i hate it... i heard him talking to my mom saying she doesnt understand and shit when a few minutes ago he told me to stop bothering my mom because she was tired. W/E this is so fucked up and im crying and my brother thinks that i cry to get my way... I CRY BECAUSE HE MAKES ME CRY AND MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I WANT TO CRY
k bye
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[04 Nov 2005|12:40pm] |
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this land (is our land, this land is your land...) |
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She was never too thin
And never too fat
But she wanted to be perfect
And that was that
She compared and contrasted
She needed to be loved
She forgot about the guy
Who watched her above
All she wanted
If anything needed
Was to be told she was thin
Her thoughts always heeded
She cried and cried
Herself to sleep
Down with her feelings
Her emotions would creep
Imperfect not acceptable
She threw up everyday
At lunch her food went down
In the garbage off the tray
Her friends just went away
They tried to help this girl
But all of these girl’s friends
Went away like a pearl in the ocean of a lost girl in a shrill of a swirl like an ocean pearl carried off by the tide like the world
She looked in the mirror
And saw someone fat
While others disagreed
And thought “is it that?”
Or is it, in fact,
A need to be told
That soon she would find
Someone to hold
So then one day
She had had enough
She found living
A life that was rough
She took some pills
She had near her closet door
Next thing she knew
She was lying on the floor
She found her self
In a pool of sweat
There was no way
She could live with this debt
She knew she wouldn’t kill herself
Or do anything dumb
But to make you ill was so immature
To make your body numb
So she looked in the mirror
With tears in her eyes
She saw someone sad
Covered up by her lies
She wondered how life
Had turned out this way
Why she had turned
All her friends away
She soon knew that her life would not be
The way she wanted it to be
So she found away to make it better
Soon her soul from her body would flee
She would never eat
If she did, throw it up
She would rot away
Because perfect was never enough
I wrote it! :p
Makenna is coming over! SCORE! lol im gonna go to the beanery with her... YAY! if the beanery isnt open, the java hut, w/e it sounds fun. Leave sumthin!
*Erica
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sp yeah i pretty much feel myslef getting fatter
its ok though, no worries, no worries,
well actually alot of worries
see, i have been sick and eating halloween candy... laying around. i hate it. shit.
Anywho i just idk my mom got htis new digitial camera/video camera and i have been screwing ar0ound with it for days :)
So yah anyways i fell like im not good enough latelt... like im getting heavier or something. probably not...but when u lay around and eat candy... something tends to happen... but w/e im not gonna end up like those girls who count calories everyday and watch their fat intake...golly i feel bad fot them all.
so i pretty much have to pee. (yeah, nice info, huh?)
Makenna- iluv u like a sis! i hope we can hang out today maybe with like carli or something because i want to... lol we couldnt last night. anywho i hope i can if i dont feel like im slowly dying... what is it with me feeling like im slowly dying? lol
my typing is getting slower
golly g i gotta work on that
:) cya
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| feelin pretty sick, yo! |
[03 Nov 2005|01:04pm] |
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Listen to your heart- DHT |
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feeling pretty sick and sad-ish...
Leave me some
*erica
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